lost

I have a good basis for what it is I want to create, im having a hard time executing. I have never been very good at portraiture but im going to try to challenge myself and create a more realistic looking face. a broad theme I have going within the work is going to be abuse and bad feelings from past relationships creeping its way into my current life. these invasive thoughts and feelings seem to come out of no where so I am currently researching different kinds of invasive plants and sketching different ideas.